Problems

As a growing teen, I face many problems. Not just at school, not just at home, but there seems to be jam at every turn. I don't know about you other kids out there, but I feel so lost. It's like no one can undertsand me sometimes. I can't let it out so easily, I just don't want the attention. But I constantly think about it, about the problems I'm trying to avoid. All it does, though, is bring me closer to facing them.

My problems are no bigger than what other teens face: crushes, parents, siblings, homework. HMPH. But there's so many that clutters in my brain, I start feeling so numb. There are moments I'm with my friends and then all of a sudden I shut up because a bad thought comes to mind. Personally, I'd rather listen to other people's troubles. I like to support them and make sure they know I'm there for them. Maybe I could learn from them, and fix my own self.

At school, I face a large number of problems. I don't think those are to be mentioned at the moment ;O But common school problems are like crushes, right? So, of course, I have a little crush on a guy (; and but I don't know what to do. Am I supposed to be the one that constantly reaches out to him, doesn't he have to start a conversation atleast once..? I'm not very good at this, lol.

One other thing, my brother and his class of 2k9, is finally going to high school. Oh goodness. I'm proud of him, don't get me wrong. I have his back. I'm just so scared that I'm going to have to watch it for the rest of my years there. He'll be such a little freshman, so confused. Even though he's... "maturing", if that's even possible, I still see him as a little troubled boy who needs guidance. It's getting so close to that moment where I see him during lunch and he's chilling with his new friends... I sure hope that his new friends aren't complete retards. I have to learn to let go of his hand.. and let him walk by himself. I just haven't reached that yet.

Another thing about my family, my parents are giving me trouble. I'm almost 16 yrs. old! And they need to back off no more than a smudge. My mom is always up in my BIZ. When I want to tell her something, she loses focus on me. But when its something she doesn't need to know, she'll just keep asking. **SIGH** They ARE right sometimes, like staying on the phone too late can ruin my schedule. But they don't need to assume more than that, they don't need to know why I'm on the phone or what am I talking about. Honestly, I don't know who IS right or wrong, but all of us is definetly at fault here.

These complications sound so small when they're said out loud. But why do I feel so busted on the inside? I need to do something to fix my life, so one day I can be free of botheration. I'm pretty sure it will come to me, though. It should take some time. Although, I have little patience -_- Is there anyone out there with me?