Tragic Flaws

In english class, we had to write a journal page about what our tragic flaws are. Since I haven't written a blog in a while, (it's not like anyone reads my blogs anyways :p) I've decided to interpret my journal in this blog:

Tragic Flaw- A character defect that causes the downfall of the protagonist of a tragedy.

I'm pretty sure I have plenty of flaws in me. I can name some hundred things wrong with me and still wouldn't be half way through the list. One flaw is my internal pessimism. Whether it's a person, an event, or a test, a bad thought is the first thing that comes to my mind. I happen to be very judgmental, I guess. There's never a day where I pass by something or someone and not make fun of it. It's just natural! Ask my friends; They've endured me this past year and every comment I make is either stupid, or racial. Why? I have absolutely NO idea, it just makes my day feel just a little better. I call it internal because MOST (just most) of the time, I keep them a secret. Some thoughts are meant to stay in my mind and not wander around where they shouldnt be, sorda like a zit; Most of them are on your face, it shouldn't be anywhere else, because that's hella weird. My thoughts are to myself, not to others. The ones that deserve to be said out loud, are said out loud, but sometimes, no everyone hears me. So I guess it's all good!

One time, during lunch, I was eating and chilling with my friends. I was in the middle of talking to Leeann, Rachelle and Regina when I heard the craziest cackle laugh noise. It was like "KA-HA-HA.. KA-HAA!" But in a really high pitched voice. I looked and it happened to be this cute senior boy who's table is only a couple tables away. Leeann knows what I mean by this boy. (; For the rest of the day and then some, I've made fun of his stupid laugh. I'd go around KA-HA-ing and now Kevin is like WTF, JACEY. Oh man, you should hear it. It totally caught me off gaurd. It was effing loud for the whole world to hear. It's a good thing he's pretty, because his laugh wouldn't be the only thing I'd make comments on.

I know I have bad reactions. I know that most of the things I say are rude. I know I can be a terrible human being. My mom constantly tells me I have to try and be humble. Well, I'm working on it! I just can't help it most of the time. It all just blurts out. It's my reflex to stupid things. AND I SEE STUPID THINGS EVERYDAY. Sincere apologies to those I make fun of. It's my disease that I cannot cure at the moment. Like cancer, I shall find a cure and heal this abnormal sickness.

There are a lot more tragic flaws that alter my personality around. Now, that I've realized some of them, I should turn them around and make up a good quality. It's something I'm working on to make myself a better person. Soon enough, I'm going to have the positive-er-est-ness mind in the world!!... HAHAHAHA, YEE RIGHT, WHO AM I KIDDING..

--iJACEY.

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